OF being a Heretic

I felt so lonely in my Chemistry class. I was in a jolly mood before because the subject was very light, until a person from the business center announced that the Academic Scholars are required to attend the convocation tomorrow. I was hoping that I will be included, however, in the back of my mind, I know I'm not qualified (due to the ban on irregular students). But then, the feeling of hope permeated my system during that moment - the announcement. My friend were called - Camille, Kristine and Irish, and then he left. I was completely in blank. I don't know what to say...

I felt the discrimination. I don't know what to do. I felt that I am a heretic - a creature who deviated from the norms of the place/niche/society he belongs. My case was very helpless - I need to be condoned by the UPPER YARD - haha...

Ayoko nang mag-English.... basta disappointed ako... PEro, bawi nalang next year... baka pwede na... Sayang ang free tuition and books. :)))

I don't know how to feel

Sometimes, you just can't endure pain... It feels like you're ready to explode, any moment, anywhere. Lately, I'm experiencing overwhelming incidents in my life that came from simple events... it's so unbearable for me because the persons involved ar very close to me, very proximate.

Minsan talaga, napapagod na ako. Hindi ko na kaya... Totoo pala yung sinasabi nilang mas onerous ang emotional pain kesa sa physical pain. Mas masakit siya... Iba ang atake. Sa totoo lang, napapagod na ako. Kaya nga incoherent ang entry na ito e, kasi hindi ko talaga alam kung ano yung dapat kong isulat. Tama na, sobra na talaga.

Kinakaya ko pa dahil gusto ko pang maging masaya. I wanna be happy, truly madly deeply. hehe. Kaya nga susundin ko na lang ang payo ng friend ko, "na lahat ng tao mapapagod... kung magpapa-exhaust ka sa pagod mo, hindi ka na uurong! Kaya hanggang kaya mo pang tumayo, laban lang, sa huli, hindi ka na matatalo".

AJA lang diba? Tama ako?

1st ever post in 2007

Dahil busy-busyhan ako this past few days, ngayon pa lang ako nakapag-blog.... Yay!!!! Hello 2007!! Sorry at late na akong nag-update.... Hehehe... Ito yung mga nangyari sa akin sa 2007:

Please Lift it Higher:

Ni-release ang prelim grades ko for this sem... I am confident sa exam results ko, kasi kahit papano, nag-aral naman ako (at the expense of not watching some of my fave TV shows, hehe). Kasi sa FEU, araw ng pasukan ang examination, unlike in UP na may special dates... hehehe... Ayun... ang highest ever ko ay Econ... yung ibang subjects, tulad ng Stat, Chem, Logic ay pare-parehong nasa (1.5-1.25)... ok pa naman to maintain my ***** standing.... hehehe. =p Ang accounting and law (supposed to be my majors), ay wala pa din results... Pakshet... This year, I wanna made sure I will achieve my target grades para makapag-qualify akong BSA. Ok, GC na kung GC, but this is my very last shot.... ok?

Addiction Galore:

Dati, sa PDA na ako adik... But when Princess Hours started, na-adik na din ako dun... Crush ko si Janelle, yung bida.... Humahanga ako sa ability niya to make people laugh sa mga clumsiness niya.... Kaya hooked na hooked ako at the expense of my school works... haha... gago ko talaga. Pero wala e, nakaka-adik talaga ang Princess hours...

Emotionally exhausted:

Yep, that's me... Secret na lang kung bakit... pero ang explanation: think of the exploded star... diba nagiging blackhole siya? yun na yun....

LSS everysecond of the day:

Pangarap Lang!!! i love this song... grabe... shet.... ang ganda-ganda talaga ng rhythm.... da best :)

ayun... ito ang unang update ko sa 2007... sana di ako tamarin, and sana maging maganda ang takbo ng 2007 ko and the years to come :)